done by jill. hahahs.
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just realised ydae's post wasnt up. nvm. in conclusion, i didnt get anyth. hahs.
my bro asked me abt my religion last night during dinner. scare me. hahahs. ayes. i cldnt be bothered to elaborate here man.
so yea. went to sch in the morning feeling so tired.
suntanning alone at bro's condo. it feels good to actually be alone sometimes. oh yah. i fell aslp a few times. hahahas. after tt, the jacuzzi was good.
nth much happened. a peaceful day.
gna play tennis at bro's with sm of my friends tmr. will be towning after tt. pamela's bday. hahas.
nights.
jill-thnk you so much for all ur help! i love ya!!
muaks.
| Sunday, May 29, 2005
3rd one
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2nd one
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some photos after editing. =) just trying out
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oh i didnt manage to get anyth today. hmmm. maybe my precious suntanning oil. and i was bored. seriously bored.
ayes. i think i'm mood swinging man. whatever. i dont knw luhhs.
remedial tmr. boring!!!
anyway. gna spend smtym alone tmr. anyone interested in accompanying me, feel free to call me. hahas.
shld be going suntanning after sch tmr at my bro's plc. then i'll be hm. =)
shall do sm studying before i go party on tues. hah.
ciaos.
-i've came to a point whereby i'm sure abt my own feelings.
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was just gna get out of the hs to meet my mum when it started pouring. crap.
and in the morning, when i was suppose to go for my suntanning session, it started to rain too. man. what's all these? hahhas.
still the same thing. i hope i can buy! buy! buy!
ohh yah. i saw fiona xie agn ydae. with constance, wang jianfu and the lifeguard guy frm the champion. hahas. i think they were filming. and the day before, i saw celest chong. hahas.
urhs. and yah. i was quite surprise when luke and brenda added me on friendster ydae. nt too so for luke, bt for brenda. i dont even knw her. bt well, i'm nice. =)
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met chris, elena to do project. it was quite okay bt i didnt do much tho. hahahas. and i'm supposedly the grp leader. crap. hah. ohhs. and xy came late. hahahas.
svc was okay. as usual, praise and worship was good. ate and shopped ard JP with priss and ben. crapped alot. came hm. online till nw. nth much.
oh yah. and i talked to nelson agn. i felt normal. even talked abt going out. hah. guess i'm pretty okay nw. as in i'm like alrdy moving on to another level. =)
so, i shall help myself by mentioning his name lesser here.
yippee! going shopping with mummy tmr. hopefully i can buy buy buy!!!
-chaos.
| Friday, May 27, 2005
gp paper sucks.
met priss and rai in town after the exam. shopped in town. i might get tt puma bag afterall. hee. am going shopping with my mum. *grins. chilled at mac-cafe. used rai's laptop to edit photos. nice. i'm finally downloading the program nw. she's gna send it to me then i'll post it. haahas. think i'll change my blogskin soon too.
went to bishan to meet sham. hahas. they're a real sweet couple man. i'm envious. anyway, rai. i've decided nt to ask. lols.
i'm feeling so much btr all of a sudden. =)
i guess i'm ready to move on and meet sm other guys.
afterall, i love my freedom. i love my girlfriends.
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man. i love this photo!!
| Thursday, May 26, 2005
darn. just realised i spent alot of money today!! like after a long while.
met priss ard 4 plus. we were planning to go alter her skirt, and then study. in the end, we ended up shopping. as usual, i end up being the one getting all the stuff. we bought earings frm far east. i bought 1 pair of pink dangling ones and a pair of big black stud. went to PP 'cus she wanted to get her wallet. hmm. so i saw this black voodoo dolls back baring tube. tried on the black and also the brown one. hahahas. and guess what. i actually bought it. lols. wonder if i'll actually wear it. bt priss says it's nice and very suitable for me. hahahas. so yea.
saw wendy, cristal, mars and the bball girls. hahas.
nth much luhhs. i felt rich just a moment ago and nw, i'm like broke.
am still feeling quite weak. had fever for awhile just nw when i was out. my health's bad man.
darn. i seriously need to study for my gp paper tmr!
-nights.
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tina. somethings just never change. says:
ehs. ask uu smth.
andyyy` says:
yes ?
tina. somethings just never change. says:
do uu think last time me and nel compaitable?
andyyy` says:
yes
andyyy` says:
and its seldom i say ppl compatible ok
tina. somethings just never change. says:
lols.
tina. somethings just never change. says:
okay
tina. somethings just never change. says:
very compaitable ah?
andyyy` says:
yah
andyyy` says:
ur the only couple i see who i think is compatible last time in our sch
tina. somethings just never change. says:
oh my goodness
tina. somethings just never change. says:
hais
andyyy` says:
anyway tinaaaaaaaaa
andyyy` says:
wads gone is gone
andyyy` says:
put the past behind u
andyyy` says:
who noes u might find someone better
andyyy` says:
anyway i dun think its ur fault
andyyy` says:
its he who broke up rite
tina. somethings just never change. says:
hahas.
tina. somethings just never change. says:
yeah
tina. somethings just never change. says:
afterall we tried thrice alrdy
tina. somethings just never change. says:
ayes.
tina. somethings just never change. says:
bt do u think it's quite a waste?
andyyy` says:
very
andyyy` says:
u both look very compatible lo
andyyy` says:
and i think hes a nice guy
andyyy` says:
to go wif a nice gal like u
tina. somethings just never change. says:
hahas. why are uu suddenly so nice?
andyyy` says:
well
andyyy` says:
its not like u see mi insulting ppl anymore rite
andyyy` says:
thats wad i wassss
lols. interesting huh.
i think i'm getting btr actually. been thinking abt asking him to go sentosa. hahahahas.
alicia told me she saw him the other day. he has gt rrly short hair and he's like quite fair nw. hahhas. i havent seen him for a long time man.
anyway. i think i'm feeling slightly mre energetic and ydae bt i'm still feeling quite weak. will be going out ltr. i need to study! i dont feel tt i'm having mid yr tmr. =)
| Wednesday, May 25, 2005
finally gt tt hello program tt allows me to upload the pix.
woke up in the morning feeling rrly rrly tired. i just seem to have no strength at all. skipped sch. am gna have a long break.
went to see the doc, and he asked me nt to think too much. asked me nt to worry and so on. hah. probably due to stress and....
dream of him last night agn. hah. i cant rmb tt dream tho, bt it just seems so real. what does this mean? everytime i ask god to answer my questions, and help me move on, i dream abt him. well, i guess it's coincidental. hahas.
so yea. came hm, slp and slp, bt i kept waking up, thinking of him. i rrly dont knw what's happening. i just feel rrly tired.
anyway. i havent done anyth for the whole day. feel like slping agn. i just wna slp my life away.
i wna go shopping !!!!
-darn. i have gp paper on fri and i havent done anyth yet.
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i miss those times! =)
| Tuesday, May 24, 2005
been feeling darn slpy the whole day. maybe 'cus of my specs too. hahahas. everyone said i look weird. lols. nt tt i want to, bt 'cus i have to luhhs. i still have to wear it tmr. man. and i have trg and night study tmr.
i slept after taking a bath. ard 7. was supposed to wake up at 7.45, in the end, i woke up at 8.45. lols. had my dinner. and nw, i'm doing to slp agn. crap.
am nt feeling quite well agn. am thinking of nt going sch. urhs. tmr is actually like the last day of sch. no sch on thurs and fri, i just have to go back in the afternoon for gp paper. yea. gp mid yr luhhs. i'm dying. tho i've passed bth the gp test. i passed on the dot. -sigh. risky.
so, since last week, almost every morning, i woke up thinking whether i shld go sch. i'm beginning to dread this kinda life. the hols came at the right time. i seriously need a break. bt then agn, it isnt rrly a break too. i have so many things to do.
sometimes, i wonder, why am i doing all these? for a good and btr life next time? bt so what? thinking of this always reminds me of nel asking me, what's the purpose of my life. also, reminded me of him telling tt last time, tt i am his purpose of life. i gave him the purpose. =) sweet ehs.
oh man. snap out of it tina!
hah. ayes. pardon me.
i'm just tired.
i guess i'm just lonely. i just someone to lean on mentally in order to make me feel btr. in order to make me feel tt life isnt tt bad afterall.
| Monday, May 23, 2005
till i see you-hillsong.
am listening to hillsong united's album. look to you. it's quite nice. hahas.
been baking cookies since last night. priss stayed over at my hs. we slept at abt 2 plus, woke up at ard 9 plus and started baking agn. we were busy all day long bt it was fun. we made a mess in the kitchen. hahahas. we threw away alot of charred cookies too. and i mean alot. hah.
like i've blogged last night. it's half a year since we've broke up. glad tt i actually picked up my courage to clarify my doubts the other time. uu're rrly my ex bf. i hadnt been wrong abt uu. =)
i'm so happy, and lucky to have had uuu.
as i just smsed to priss. love doesnt all just mean being together. it means seeing the other party happy and things turning out good for bth parties. since, tt's the case for us, so be it.
still i have to say, time heals. all i need is time.
though i cant help bt miss having uu in my arms. though i cant help bt miss the times.
though i cant help bt dream abt many things. like, i would like to have uu go church with me. uus sharing the bible tgr and uu telling me what to do, making intepretations and all.
bahs.
later.
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when you Love, it doesnt matter if it is perpetual or not. Rather it is the experience tt you once had is the focal point. The memories are forever yours to keep. Make it a loving one, something you know is precious and worthwhile.
Love is something intangible and irreplaceble. Like food is needed to enrich the body, love is needed to nourish the mind and soul.
sometimes. when uu love, uu need nt have to be together. =)
i think life's good this way.
missing is enough.
reaally.
been having sm thoughts abt your bday. i rmb this time of last yr, i was busy planning for ur birthday. this yr, ur birthday is on a sat, ur cg will be thr to celebrate it for uu. it will be also be a good party.
today is 23-05-05. it is half a yr since we broke up. do uu remember? in fact, i dont even think uu read my blog anymre. in a way, it's good. 'cus we can then rrly live our own life. bt on the other hand, it's bad too, 'cus i want uu to knw mre abt me. bt, as always, i seldom get to hear things abt uu. whatever it is. i hope u've been living well in the past half yr. i hope everyth's been great for uu. yea. we aint god given to each other, so we cant be tgr. at least for nw, tt's what i knw.
u're a great guy. u'll find the right girl soon.
i hope we can be true and good friends soon.
-missingyouagain.
| Sunday, May 22, 2005
Love everything about the way you're loving me
The way you lay your head upon my shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do
-just wna dream.
| Saturday, May 21, 2005
hah. abt the quizzes. i just didnt have things to do.
today's just a simple day. finally went to check my eyes and gt my atm card man. to think i actually forgot my own password.
i have abrasions on the cornea, leading to the sharp pain i've been having for the past week. so, i have to stop wearing my contacts for 5days to allow the cornea to heal by itself. tt kinda suck. i look so ugly with specs. lols. like anyone will look at me. -dung
gt my ear pierced agn. sometimes i just have the urge to pierce. finally. in fact, i wonder why i've pierced it too. ayes.
i'm leading a confusing life man.
i need to study tmr!!! pls tina! get ur butt moving.
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Your Taste in Music: |
| Adult Alternative: Highest Influence |
| 90's Hip Hop: High Influence |
| R&B: High Influence |
| Hip Hop: Medium Influence |
| 90's Alternative: Low Influence |
| 90's Pop: Low Influence |
| 90's Rock: Low Influence |
| Alternative Rock: Low Influence |
| Country: Low Influence |
| Hair Bands: Low Influence |
| Your True Birth Month Is December |
 Logical Patriotic Ambitious Not egoistic Loves praise Loves to joke Fun to be with Not pretending Loves attention Short tempered Hates restrictions Loves to socialize Loves to be loved Loyal and generous Impatient and hasty Changing personality Good sense of humor Honest and trustworthy Influential in organizations Takes high pride in oneself Active in games and interactions |
American Cities That Best Fit You: |
| 65% Austin |
| 65% Honolulu |
| 60% Atlanta |
| 60% San Diego |
| 55% Denver |
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| Your Love Style is Agape |
 You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
| You Are A Fun Friend |
 You're the one who keeps your group laughing And you've always got an idea for something fun to do The party's not complete without you And you wouldn't miss it for the world |
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| Your Passion is Pink |
 Innocent and naive, you approach sex with a virginal mindset.You tend to enjoy teasing and flaunting much more than actual sex.You're a notorious flirt, and you can pick up anyone you desire.As a result, your reputation is a lot steamier than your real sex life. |
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| You Are A Romantic |
You are more romantic than 80% of the population.  You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do! |
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The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to obedience and warmth. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
| Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
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| Your Mexican Name Is... |
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Your #1 Match: INFP |
| The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. |
Your #2 Match: ISFP |
| The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. |
Your #3 Match: ENFP |
| The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. |
Your #4 Match: INFJ |
| The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. |
Your #5 Match: INTP |
| The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. |
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Your Deadly Sins |
| Sloth: 40% |
| Envy: 20% |
| Gluttony: 20% |
| Greed: 20% |
| Lust: 20% |
| Pride: 0% |
| Wrath: 0% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 17% |
| You will die while sleeping - and no one will notice. |
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Your Deadly Sins |
| Sloth: 40% |
| Envy: 20% |
| Gluttony: 20% |
| Greed: 20% |
| Lust: 20% |
| Pride: 0% |
| Wrath: 0% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 17% |
| You will die while sleeping - and no one will notice. |
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| Your Seduction Style: The Charmer |
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| Friday, May 20, 2005
any idea hw the 69 position came about? it came frm the earthworms!!! an earthworm itself carries bth gender. one on each end. so when they mate with another, the male end will go to the female end, and the female end with the male end. and so yea.
Most fish are female at the early phase of life, bt at a later stage, it becomes an old and useless male. lols. tt was what my bio teacher said.
bio tutorial was interesting ydae.
anyway, today's carnival was quite fun. i like the softball game! hah. smtyms, i was like grooving ard luhhs. i think i'm crazzy. damn funny. esp abt tt hitting on guys in clubs thingy. lols. hmm. bt then thr were sm parts whereby i was quite irritated.
so we went towning. had kfc at far east, then went shopping. man. i miss shopping! i need money! hee.
left earlier to meet priss. have to go get ingredients with her for the baking of cookies. we had a hard time man.
-tired
as usual, i'm looking to svc. in fact, i also look forward to seeing uu in my svc smday. haha.
nights.
"goodnight babe."
"dont let the bed bug bite."
i have to say, u're very sweet the other night.
i cant help it.
| Thursday, May 19, 2005
all of a sudden. i'm having a fever. ayes. and sports carnival is tmr. gna take part in softball. hah. wanted mix netball bt we didnt get it. oh well.
ayes. i'm too tired to blog. maybe tmr....
nights.
| Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i almost passed my maths test. damn. and i think today's chem test is another gone case. man. i gt to start passing. anyway. am hm early 'cus trg will resume only next week, and being the good girl i am, i decided to come hm. =)
i went to nbss to get my cert, testimonial and yrbk. hahas. immediately i flipped the page to his class. lols. he looks pretty cute. oh well. he's my ex bf. -grins. hmm. actually, on my way to sch, walking in sch, and as i was flipping through the yrbk, i thought alot. i miss secondary sch days. i miss tt kinda life. i miss him.
ayes. i need to get sm slp.
| Monday, May 16, 2005
I’ve lived I’ve loved I’ve lost I’ve paid some dues
And baby we’ve been to hell and back again
Through it all you’re always my best friend
For all the words I didn’t sayand all the things I didn’t do
tonight I’m gonna find a way
-i'm all abt loving uu.
just give me smtime to get a hold of myself, and let me go back to the way i've been.
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-always on my mind.
sch's pretty ok. actually, was still thinking of nt going. hah. urhs. sch was suppose to end at 5, bt in the end, we left at 7 'cus we cldnt finish our prac.
morning run agn tmr. wed, night study with the j2s. trg will resume next week. hahahas.
i have no life man.
hmm. shld i go for the extreme adventure briefing tmr? ayes.
| Sunday, May 15, 2005
my eyes hurt alittle. hah.
my head's throbbing.
every week. i'd look forward to the weekends. i can get sm rest, go for svc, and finish up all the undone stuff before the week starts agn. bt smhow or rather, i always end up nt completing my work.
i just cant study tmr.
without uu, everyday's a dreadful routine.
with uu, everyday's exciting.
without uu, there isnt a purpose.
with uu, that's all i ever dream of.
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my heart's feeling weak.
i feel like crying the whole day.
man. i kept waking up in the middle of the night thinking of uu. uu're the first person tt came to my mind in the morning. our conversation last night, was just like a dream.
i cant concentrate, i cant study.
i kept thinking of uuu.
i need to snap back to reality. i need to knw we're no longer in love. i need to knw and tell myself i dont love uu anymre.
i need to study. i need to try.
i have a test tomorrow and i dont knw anyth.
-i miss uuu dearly.
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i just finished talking to nel. been a rrly long time since i talked to him. or shld i say since i have the courage to face/talk to him agn. conversation was good. and i manage to clear the questions tt i've been thinking abt. am glad to hear smths.
well, whatever it is, i will nt carry hopes. we've bth moved on.
i went to look at the photos tt we took tgr. those tt are in my com. even the ones tt we bth wore red adidas. yea man. we looked compaitable. ayes. many things tt i wld like to say. bt yea.
nel. thns for thinking of me. thns for thinking abt me before doing anyth. thns for answering my questions honestly. u're a great guy. dont say u're dumb, u're bad or what. 'cus u aint. let's just look str8 and walk on. we'll have the courage for whatever tt comes. we'll knw what's predestined for us. rmb what i used to tell uu. we might break up nw, bt, agn, we might get back tgr. we'll see. have faith. night. and yea. "slp tight. dont let the beg bug bite." i miss these. =)
-tear.
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i just gt hm like slightly b4 12 'cus i went for double svc tonight. shared a cab with priss. imagine if we hadnt take cab back. dad and mum is like angry with me man. sheesh.
svc was awesome. word was powerful, praise and worship was hip, cool, ayes, awesome luhhs. pastor was rev phil pringle. he's great. and he's son, daughter, son in law was thr too. oh, and a pop star frm aust, nicky fletcher. she's a babe man. lols. very cool. i enjoyed the svc. oh yah. pastor laid hands on me 'cus he was praying for secondary and junior college students. it was the first time smone lay hands on me. and yes. i felt it.
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many times, when i cried, i wld tell myself i wont cry so easily the next time agn. bt this is just too hard to achieve.
i'm so tired of fighting everyth. nw, i have one mre thing to fight abt, my religion. and let me just say, this is gna be the worst ordeal tt i have to go through so far, 'cus it concerns my family. those ppl tt i rrly love, tt i rrly care abt. it isnt gna be easy. bt i have to fight, 'cus i have chosen this. no matter hw much i dont want to, i will. in the very first plc, this was the reason why i had resisted the idea of being a christian when me and nel had tt problem. i'm too scared to fight. i'm too scared to see what's ahead of me when i have to choose this path. i'm afraid of what i have to go through.
oh god. i'm feeling so so miserable right nw. in fact, the ordeal hasnt rrly started. i dont want to think.
i too have many problems, it isnt tt i dont. i just dont show it, i dont say it.
i have questions in my mind for uu, bt i dont knw hw to ask.
i want to be honest with my parents, bt i dont knw hw to.
i dont knw many many things.
many times during svc, i'll think of uuu. the question "why hadnt i seriously considered being a christian?" if i had done so, things might rrly be btr nw.
i do regret.
things cant be turned back nw.
as long as u're happy.
my head is spinning. my heart is breaking. i'm falling.
-i need uu so much right nw.
| Saturday, May 14, 2005
am at my bro's plc nw. went suntanning just nw.
havent been feeling tooo good since last night. cried. hah. i just dont knw what's wrong with me man. it just gets frustrating when i cant stop having uu on my mind. nt only this. my mom telling me tt it's diff to have 2 religions in family. my studies. favouritism. ayes. all these nonsense. i just cant take it when it all hits me.
sometimes, i just dont knw express hw i rrly feel inside. it's too diff to tell anyone abt it. they wldnt understand too. anyway. i'm alrdy used to keeping these things to myself. so yea. let it be.
bro just came back with lunch. will be leaving for church too after that.
| Friday, May 13, 2005
first time i'm using the sch library to surf. hahahhahas.
-i think i'm spastic.
quite high today man.
oh yah. the guy tt always make me think of nel is sitting in front of me with his 2 friends using the com. hahas. anyway, i'm just watiting for my classmates to end sch 'cus they have chi. we're towning. we planned to eat jack's plc then go for movies. bt, in my memory, thr is jack's plc in town. i checked and thr isnt. hmm. so yea. wonder what we'll eat.
might be having sushi buffet too.
played bball for pe. it was fun, and funny too. lols. mre like training for abs man. we're a rrly crazy bunch of ppl.
sherin msged me just nw to invite ppl for tmr's svc. she said it's gna be very gd. hahahas. the first person tt came to my mind was nel. actually, i will always think of inviting him whenever it comes to this kinda program. like the benny hinn crusade too.
think i kinda miss him quite abit today. in fact, speaking of that, i realise i havent rrly been thinking abt him every single day anymre. tho i do miss him luhhs.
i always see myself in xiaoyan. when i was attached. hah.
i've been wanting to ask him if he misses me. if he thinks of me when he goes out with other girls/whatsoever. like when he's with her ex gf, the one after me. ayes. bt it's damn stupid to ask this kinda questions all of a sudden. bt i just wna clear my doubts. hmmm. anyway, he did ask me to ask him myself if thr's anyth.
noppe. noppe. i wont.
-later!
| Wednesday, May 11, 2005
reached hm at 10 and i rrly wonder what have i done the whole day. smth tt's worth mentioning. i feel remorseful for nt studying for bio!! i read the notes a few times bt it wasnt studying. i'm gna fail rrly badly this time round. i'm failing everyth man. ahhhhss!! can someone pls save me. i think i btr stop playing in sch.
did i mention tt all the fats are building up in my tummy and i dont have any shape anymre! *sssscccccrrrreeeaaaaammmmmssssss!!! lols. i'm so fat.
anyway. completed nafa on mon. smoothly. =))
-it's nt tt i dont think, i dont miss, i'm just too busy. this is good too.
i think i'm happy. i'm quite glad things turn out this way.
| Tuesday, May 10, 2005
smth's so wrong with the few guys behind today. lols. talked abt 'wank', then smbody had an erection. i wonder who. then abt squeezing bananas, yada yada. u get my pt. lols. they're so dirty luhhs. ayes. bad for my ears. oh ya. and my eyes. -shudder
day was pretty much the same. benny asked me out bt nahs, i have a test tmr, shall just come hm and mug. hahas. i seriously need to catch up on my studies.
have i ever mention tt i'm very crazy in sch? i crap alot, laugh alot, basically, i just behave like a lunatic. smtyms, i wonder if this is gd or bad. i think other will just shun away frm me if they see me coming to sch with a black face or if i happen to lose my temper.
aint feeling too good nw.
-sometimes, uu just dont understand.
| Sunday, May 08, 2005
Never be replaced-first ladi
Baby i love you , and I'll never let you go ,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know ,
All the love we made , can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you , and I'll never let you go ,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know ,
The love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you,
Yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until, the end , of time
From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
And I wanna have your kids
Thinkin never compares to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt
In my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that
I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
And I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby i love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know,
All the love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you ,) and I'll never let you go ,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know ,
The love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you,
Yes I do
I'll be with you
As long as you want me to
until , the end , of time
quite a sweet song. sent to me by priss. she told me she thought of me when she heard tt song.
am having a hard time trying to get myself to concentrate to study. i just cant!
| Saturday, May 07, 2005
wee. cut my hair today Ginrich, the one at heeren. for 34 bucks. lols. some of them said it's nice. bt then agn priss said thr isnt actually much difference, bt it's nice. hahahas. just a slight change in style. ohh. priss cut her hair too. it was actually rrly sexy and spunky with the styling bt she went to destroy it. haiyah.
hahahhas.
benny came to meet us for lunch.
service was great esp with the mothers' day play.
nth much. i have to go slp soon. am gna spend my whole day studying tomorrow.
| Friday, May 06, 2005
i'm feeling so tired nw. so tired. and i dont quite feel like blogging.
had 2.4 run today. man. my class girls can rrly run. furthermore, they dont quite look like those sort tt can run. hahhas. anyway, i chose to go for OCS over netball. hais. it was a tough decision to make. ohhs. and we lost to ajc.
OCS was fun. i mean it when i say i was crazy. i rrly was crazy. i say stupid things, crack stupid lame jokes, make fun of ppl, ogle at guys, gossip and i laugh like i havent laugh before. lols. shant go on to the details. bt it was funny. went town with sarah, huihui and weiqin for dinner. ljs agn. i just had to eat it to satisfy my craving. talked and laughed agn. as usual. was on my way hm when i decided to mt benny. he said if i'll wait for him, he can send me hm. so i waited. he sent me to near my hs agn.
ayes. he's a nice guy luhhs. in fact, i have many nice ppl ard me. nice friends. =)
i feel tt i'm dozing off.....
| Thursday, May 05, 2005
whenever i look at our photo. or even ur photo, i'll still think it's such a pity tt we aint able to walk on tgr. smtyms, i think in a bad way, like why do have to hurt me the way uu did last time? why do i leave such a bad impression on uu? ayes. i'll wonder if i'm rrly tt bad, yada yada. hah. actually when i think back, i feel tt i'm quite a pushover.
dream of uu agn last night. dream tt it was my birthday or smth. then i invited everyone. including ben. think we were all in sch when i made tt invitation and he asked if ur whole clique cld go, so i said no, 'cuz of uu. bt, when uu secretly when to peep at ur clique, i realise u're nt thr, no where to be found, and i gt worried. hah. what a dream man.
in fact, occasionally, i'll think abt whether i shld get for uu anyth for ur bdae this yr. does it rrly matter? hmm. we'll see. maybe yes, maybe nt. i'll think abt what i shld do for my bdae this yr. maybe just have a quiet and simple one with no celebrations. maybe. maybe.
alright. sch was prettty much the same today, just tt everyone seems to seems to be xtra slpy. skipped trg and went town for lunch with my friends. took neos agn. after tt, sm of them went back and the few of us bought cookie frm subway, sat thr and talked. hee. it was my idea. i'm a well known greedy pig in the clique luhhs. hahahhas. hui hui kept asking me if i was moodswinging. bt, i'm nt, just tired and nt feeling quite well. was slightly affected by ydae's dream too. even sarah asked me if i'm ok the min she saw me.
was quite disciplined just nw. finally, i did sm studying, and redo my maths tutorial. am pretty happy with myself. i have to do this often. i have to study!! i seriously dont want to fail my way through.
alright. netball match tmr. against aj. crucial match. bt i have class trip to ocs tmr too. have to choose either. i rrly wna go on trip with my class. 'cuz this is definitely gna be diff frm the sentosa trip. =)
nights.
| Wednesday, May 04, 2005
day was pretty simple. i think i like to go sch. i like the jc lifestyle. bt i seriously dont like waking up and the long hrs spent in sch. hah. sounds contridicating?
went to tampines sports hall to watch the badminton guys play. it was sorta like a netball outing. urhs. wanted to watch carter with sm of them bt i'm too tired. i feel tt i can doze off anytime. so i came back, bath and went to bed. didnt study much agn. think i'm dying luhhs.
ayes. anyway, i failed my chem test agn!! sheesh man. i btr buck up!! even my two fellow ite mates passed! darn. lols.
i agree with what corny posted in his blog. i miss being in love too. bt ironically, when u're in love, uu wna be free. uu wna be be able to love smbody and be loved in return. however, tt doesnt always seem to be the case. there's always the fear, fear of losing him/her, fear of getting disappointed, fear of being out of love. hmm. i love the feeling of being in love, being doted on, knowing tt u're someone's special someone. getting all the attention tt uu need, feeling tt u're the most impt on earth. i miss being able to love. hah. no matter hw much i want to be in love, hw much i miss being able to have a special smbody in my life, it doesnt rrly matter. 'cuz, often, things dont always turn out the way uu want to be. esp in r/s, otherwise, thr wldnt be so many heartbreaks huh. things wld be able to be prevented. further more, i dont have the time to be in love. thr's too much things to handle. at least for nw. plus. i'm still nt ready for any of these, nt ready to accept smone new into my lyfe.
gdnight.
| Tuesday, May 03, 2005
gna make this a quick entry. cant wait to get to bed.
my back has been aching for the past few days. i wonder what happened man. my knee and ankle isnt too good too.
anyway. it was diff to wake up this morning after the long weekend. i miss the hols whereby i can wake up anytime i want. sch was alright. we were dismissed punctually at 2 'cuz thr wasnt any remedials. hahahas. damn happy luhhs. my clique headed to town to eat. played the truth of dare with the no. game. and when i gt it, they actually asked me hw many guys have i rejected. lols. a pretty weird question. i mean like tt isnt a common question. bt i didnt quite ans tt question too. lols. so anyway. huihui and huisi went back sch for choir and the rest of us went to take neos as promised. lols.
-end-
night.
| Monday, May 02, 2005
met priss ard 11 plus. lols. we kinda dressed up today. hahahahs. man, i think we behave like bimbos today luhhhs.
we had lunch at taka fd court. then went to coffee club at kino to study. only manage to do abit. saddening. i havent rrly studied for the whole week. i'm so dead! i have to mug ltr! hahas. okay. so anyway, after tt, we went shopping!! like finally. i bought a pair of heels. my old pair was spoilt and my mummy threw it away. wanted to get my shoe bag, bt didnt see anyth nice.
watched this small boy play his drums outside paragon. he's cool man. lols. he was playing all the praise songs. surprisingly, i knw everyth tt he's playing. lols. me and prissy were singing away.
it was a fun day! i miss this kinda lyfe.
-im happy. so full of joy and freedom.
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-kinda awkward today.
just gt hm aint too long ago.
xiaoyan's party was quite okay. everyone met at kap and then headed to signature park. her bf's hs. tt reminded me of me planning for nel's bdae. and when i see sherman(her bf) carrying things ard, org the stuff, makes me think of the sentosa stay over tt we had.
basically i like hanging out with the clique of mine. hui hui kissed me on my cheek!! hahahas. then i told her, i havent gotten a kiss for a long time. lols. alright. and we held hands and walk in orchard ltr. a big grp of us went to cine, intending to watch a moive. bt in the end 'cuz it's too late, we went for coffee. talked, laughed and played. simple bt good.
in fact, i havent rrly been thinking abt him. tt's good. bt then agn, i do wonder why i dont see him online anymre. hah.
nights.
| Sunday, May 01, 2005
-dont say things tt uu nvr rrly meant to do.
going to a xiaoyan's birthday party ltr. might nt be staying for long tho. hahas.
i havent studied for a long time man. i cant do this! ayes. i btr start studying soon.
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they always seem to knw what to say to us, what to do with us. smtimes i just dont understand hw they can. it feels like we're are always at their disposal. dumb enough? they'll msg uu all of a sudden, making ur heart race, making uu so nervous, rising ur hopes. they just seem to knw tt uu love them, and tt u'll definitely reply. and after much waiting, the reply uu got was, "ohhs. actually, nothing much. it's okay if u're busy. i shall nt disturb uu. talk to uu next time." or "nah. nth. just wna see tt u're fine." i mean what's all these? they do have a weird sense of thinking, weird way of expressing themselves. guys often say, girls are weird creatures, so difficult to understand. bt hey, it isnt easy for girls to understand guys too. uu guys think hanging out with girls when uu have a gf is okay. uu guys think going out with a female friend alone is okay. bt, when it happens to be the other way round, what do uu guys think? isnt it true tt bth parties have to stand in each other's shoe and think if uu guys truly care for each other? trust is very impt. if ur r/s has gt a good and strong foundation, i still believe it's okay to hang out with girls. urhs. on the other hand, thr shld be limitations to everyth. so it still breaks to thinking in each other's plc. being sensitive abt ur partner's feelings. many things. too many examples to quote. in short, if thr's no communication, hw can thr be understanding?
it's easy to say these kinda things for me nw. probably 'cuz i'm nt in any diff situation nw. i'm just still kinda stuck in the process of find my way out, finding a way to move on with my life. it isnt a easy process, guess most ppl shld agree with this. in fact, if i were to be given a chance, to choose b/w suffering with him, or go away and be free, i will choose to suffer. however, tt's unless he is willing to give his all, to suffer with uu. a r/s isnt an individual thing, it takes bth hands to clap. no doubt, it can be someone giving mre than the other, bt if it's truly love, does giving mre even matter? shldnt uu be mre than willing to give the one uu love. shldnt uu be willing to climb the highest mountain for her just to get the furthest and brightest star? mre than willing to go dwn the deepest sea just to get the purest pearl for her? if it's truly love, why does making sacrifices hurts?
when uu want to get over someone, uu have to have the courage, strength and grace. courage to walk away frm him, to learn to live independently. strength to be able to take on what ever things u're gna hear abt him, what ever trials tt god has prepared uu to go through. grace, is to be gracious enough to give the person uu love to someone else, and to trust tt he/she will be happy.
uu have to desire, and continue to walk on without looking back. this isnt easy, actually nth abt love is easy. uu have to be determined tt uu rrly want to get over him and move on. uu have to stop all temptations.
cry when uu have to. breaking down once in awhile, letting loose all ur emotions is okay. most imptly, uu cant stop walking. uu cant stop having the desire, uu cant give up. tired of trying? tired of failing? tired of acting? tired of crying over and over him/her? sure thing. bt think agn. if u're nvr gna continue trying, uu will always be stuck here. uu will nt be happy.
i want to be happy. i want to move on. i'm thankful for everyth tt has happened b/w the bth of us. i'm grateful for uu coming into my life, and being part of it. we bth knew tt this is gna happen. we bth knew this wld be the ending. guess, u're part of the trials tt god has put me through in my life to make me a btr person.
i may sound like i've been a wonderful gf. a gf who's understanding, who's sensitive, just wonderful. sadly, i'm nt. all i can say is tt i've tried. bt agn, i'm still learning. i've tried to give uu my all. i gave uu my heart. to me, tt's what truly matters. the first tt i gave my heart to.
i'm gna help myself too. ppl who are mending broken hearts! all the way! walk on!
just feel like preaching. hah.
my thoughts are quite distorted.
skating was good. svc was great. strong presence of god. dinner and ice cream were real nice too.
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