first. shall start with my results. i did pretty well. at least for me. i'm rrly rrly happy with my results. i'm so shock and it all feels like a dream. like a miracle. i've gt 27 for prelims, and i gt 14 for Os. tt's abt half. pretty unbelievable huh. i have like 4 A2s and 4 B3s. interesting huh. anyway. what i'm most happy abt is, i havent let my parents done. and nobody's unhappy with me nw. and also, everyone in my clique has done well. real happy for everyone. anyway. before i gt my results, i was trembling slightly and i so felt like i was gna cry. bt after, i was still gna cry. hah. i didnt even dare take my result slip frm tt teacher. ms ng congratulated me on the spot because i did well for a maths. i was worried sick alright. i hugged my friends, like jill and i screamed. lols.
we have all done well.
oh yah. and sherin came to our sch too. hahas. she congratulated me and we even hugged. tho i dont rrly knw her.
next. someth else tt i was worried abt, smth tt kept me staying awake the whole of last night. i had to face him today. we talked like twice. first time, i was quite weird. werent very comfortable. second time, i was fine and all. i think i'm rrly moving on. i was put to the test. i dont quite feel anyth when i was talking to him the second time. like he's just a friend. he didnt do very badly, bt nt too well too and i felt like partially i'm the one to blame. anyway. nt only does he look diff, he feels diff too. in fact. i knew he was diff, just tt nw i knw hw exactly diff he is. i still like the old him. dont rrly like the change.
i dont rrly knw hw to start. i do hope u're still the old uu, bt of cos, ppl change and u too. i guess we'll hardly see each other frm nw on. unless we intend to meet up. so i guess i shall just say all the best to. thns for everyth tt u've done. every single thing. u gave me smth sweet and impt to remember in my sec sch life. it was special because tt person is uu. uu gave me smth to look back when i'm old. nw tt all things have changed, we've bth moved on individually, all i can say is i hope the best for uu. may all great things come ur way. god bless. =))
went to saint andrews cathedral at citihall with priss after we left sch. she needed to go thr. and i wld like to go thr to say my thanks. so we prayed for awhile. talked for awhile and went back to meet the girls agn. chilled at starbucks and went walk walk after tt. nth much. i'm tired. we're all going sentosa tmr bright and early!
i'm blessed-
| Sunday, February 27, 2005
my stomach havent been feeling tt good today. i've been having tt darn queasy feeling inside me. ahhhhh. been looking forward to tmr bt also, nt quite. i want to meet up friends and all. having mixed feelings. it's all killing me.
priss is on her way. we wna spend our night talking instead of staying awake at our own hs. we bth knew tt we cldnt slp.
went for service yesterday. my first time. it was nice indeeed. talked alot. i found out frm ben tt he shaved off his goatee tt i've been waiting to see. hahas. bt even jacky thinks he's better w/o his goatee.
ohs. i think it's also because of yesterday tt i've been having tt funny feeling even when i see his name. whatever!! i'll be seeing him tmr. wonder. wonder.
shall go accompany priss.
cya all tmr!
| Thursday, February 24, 2005
i can't help it. call me a cry baby whatsoever. i've been like tt since i dont knw when.
why can't they start treating me like an adult. don't come into the rm asking me all those things like i'm still a kid. or don't even just come in and start scolding me. give me sm form of respect like i've been giving all of uu. if u think i take things for granted then so be it. because i havent. u guys want me to grow up, to be mre responsible, to be mre sensible, then give me the chance to be. come on. when have u guys given up the fact tt i'm no longer a kid? u guys have always been treating me like one. i want all my freedom ok?! i can think. i knw what's lyfe. i knw it isnt easy. bt, i want to try make my lyfe the way i want it to be. if u want me to be the sensible child, then give me the opportunity to prove it to uu.
fuckit. pissed.
so many things on my mind. i dont knw what to say.
let me say. if i do badly, they'll sure hope tt i will stay at hm for the next few days after tt.
tt's just a nice way of putting it.
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Monday is d'day! i'm so dead.
priss was at my hs today to accompany me. hahas. watched vcds. didnt do much luhhs. we looked at friendster. and his account too. realised he looked different. rrly different. and i don't quite like the new look. i like the old look. the cute nelson.
i'm off.
| Wednesday, February 23, 2005
went ahead with my plans and i came hm sick. didnt blade too much tho. we went to town for awhile to take neos. hahas. tt was quite fun and rather interesting. lols. saw daryl quah twice and he was like staring at us. hah.
been in bed eversince i came back last night. had fever and i still have them nw. crappy. last night, i had to call for my mum because i felt miserable. she applied ointment on me, gt me to take medicine and accompanied me for awhile. i actually cried in front of her, telling her i'm miserable.
tho i'm feeling better, i still don't feel gd at all.
ciaos.
| Monday, February 21, 2005
i'm finally ill.
hahahs. tt sounds funny.
met priss for prata as promised tho i dont quite wna eat. i woke up having flu, headache, giddiness and sore throat. tt jesse frm singapore idol and timothy were thr filming. priss was funny luhhs. went over to my parents shop after tt. promised to help my mom because she has to do her accounts. came hm and was in bed eversince. i'm still nt well.
i was suppose to go ecp with priss tmr but i wonder if i can still go. i wna go! been waiting to go. ahhhh.
i miss uu all the mre when i'm sick. remember the way u pat my head when we lie in bed together? remember the way uu kissed my forehead? remember when u first came to my hs?
sometimes, i wonder if u think of me when those things happened after we broke up. get what i mean?
oh god. i sound so pathetic. pardon me.
i feel out of breath. the chestache. the headache. the flu. my illnesses are killing me.
| Sunday, February 20, 2005
i will nt. i will nt let the tears in my eyes fall. i hate this. pls do nt scold me without getting smths right. i hate this! i feel so sucky nw!
they do nt understand me.
altho i knw smtyms i'm rrly wrong.
-i miss uu and i so need a hug frm u.
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am having a headache nw. i cldnt slp last night. seems like i've been thinking too much.
i hate this crap. so much anxiety going on here.
i have to get ready soon. am going out with my mom.
bless me pls.
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i just spent a bomb because i just changed my phone!!! finally tt pathetic screwed up phone of mine is gone! but, i'm upset as my money is gone too. nt yet, but soon because my sis paid for me first. crap. i'm quite poor nw. all my angbao money is gone alright!!! tt phone caused me 438 bucks for god's sake. ahhhhh!!!! kill me pls! such a spendthrift.
anyway, went out with rai today. priss joined us for lunched. rai wanted to get a pair of matching bikini and bodshorts for guys. walked to and fro the stored is PP, and we finally gt them, but they werent very matching. hahahas. but they're nice. i tried a bikini too and it's actually nt bad. decided nt to get them as i havent been going sentosa too. aint quite a beach bummer these days.
sis came to pick me up frm hm and we went to bugis to change my phone. oh, she changed hers too. went over to raffles hotel for dinner. i had steak, which is nt bad, bt guess what, i actually felt too tired to chew. hah. shared a choco cake with her bf because my sis doesnt take choco. tt's all.
nw i feel fat and poor. dammit.
i have a feeling tt i'll do rrly badly for Os. rrly. i'm scared. and with regards to the rumours abt the teaching thing, it's confirmed tt those ppl who gt tt letter has an everage score of abt 17. i didnt receive tt letter. it's impossible for me to do better than 17, so, hw bad can my results be? i cant imagine at all, plus i wldnt want to.
say bye.
| Friday, February 18, 2005
went to the airport early in the morning to accompany rai to send her bf off. priss was with us too. we talked alot and laughed alot. it was interesting. hahas.
rot in town the whole day.
met everyone at somerset mrt and all were late. we're gna celebrate tiffany's bdae. had dinner at n.y.d.c and then went over to the youth park for cake cutting. me and priss gt this grp of ppl who were practising a dance to perform for tiffany. and they did. there was this particular girl and she's awesome. hahahs. hot!
today. met priss in the afternoon. we were suppose to work out in the gym and swim but in the end, we did neither. lols. we ended back going to my hs, bath and went to catch the movie Hide and Seek at causeway pt. i swear tt at one pt of time, she scare the hell out of me. hhahhahas. it was pretty exciting to watch this kind of movie once in awhile.
been feeling nostalgic for these days. i wonder why.
i'm scared of seeing uu, but then agn, i wna see uu. i havent seen uu for like abt 3mths. tt's long. oh yah. i told priss abt sm crazy scenario tt i've pictured in my mind. hah.
i'm feeling slpy.
| Wednesday, February 16, 2005
i realised i havent blogged abt my thai trip. let me try to recall.
the first day.
i reached abt 2 plus 3. went to central, the big shopping centre, tt's like takashimaya. when i was at the station, some thai guy came and wanted to get my no. i was like -blur. then my sis shook her head. and the guy went, oopss. sorry!! hahahhas. it was funny. all of my family was thr aight and they all laughed. had dinner at m.b.k's foodcourt. they're claypot mixed beef is nice, the tom yam is nice. ayes. they have nice food thr. went for massage. an hr of foot massage and another hr of full body thai massage. went back. came dwn with my sis and rot at the lounge. had a magarita and my sis tried smth new frm thr.
second day.
i didnt slp well. had breakfast. went to some plc tt i can't rmb the name nw. like pasar malam in s'pore. bought things. went mbk agn. went to another shopping centre too. bought a roxy shorts. then had dinner at cocoa, the steamboat restaurant. went for an hr of foot massage. went to the lounge with my sis, sis in law. had strawberry magarita. tt was better than the lime one i had the previous night.
third day.
went to the weekend market. it was so hot and stuffy in thr. bought many many things thr. hahahas. so did my bro and my sis in law. the four of us were together, and my parents were together. i was happy to see my sis and bro talking more. hahas. they seldom have the chance to. so we met agn and went back to the hotel. bathed, too sm rest and went out for dinner at Zen, a japanese restaurant.
last day, went to mbk agn. left for sm market thing agn. bought sm stuff. rushed back because they'll be a bus fetching us to the airport. my dad, my sis and me, were in a cab and we decided to stop halfway and run back because there was a traffic jam. and tt sure was fun. the 3 of us were like laughing a racing. guess what? my dad was first. hahahahahhahas. alrights. then we left fot the airport. had kfc thr. then took the plane back. i continued watching alfie(was watching on my way thr). i was rrly inspired. if u watched it, u'll knw why i guess. reached s'pore ard 9 plus.
the trip was good. indeed a shopping trip. i missed singapore when i was thr tho.
took 825 yesterday and i thought abt hw i used to cry on the bus when i say bye to uu. i was pretty sad yesterday. hah.
bye.
| Tuesday, February 15, 2005
i just got home nt too long ago. i havent come hm alone at this time before, with the lights of my hs all out. and also, without my mum calling me. weird.
i can hardly open my eyes and am having a splitting headache.
i should say overall i had a great time today. cheena programs today with ms priss. we went kbox, met my sis in law for sushi buffet, watched a moment to remember. tt's a great show. so sad, u'll hear many people sobbing during the movie. tt's the only movie tt i've ever cried so hard before. oh yah. another conclusion to make, i spent about 80 bucks today! i'm crazy.
did u even think abt me today? did i even come to ur mind at all?
but guess what, i've been thinking abt uu the whole day.
despite being so clear abt the fact tt we can never get back together, the fact tt we can nvr start anew, i still can't help bt think abt hw u've treated me. hw sweet u've always been when u're with me. we've tried agn and agn and agn, and we all knew tt we're nt quite suitable for each other. ..
crap. why am i talking abt all these.
nights.
| Thursday, February 10, 2005
hihi. i'm typing this at the changi airport. bye singapore!!! i'll be back soon! miss uu all.
hee. *grins
| Wednesday, February 09, 2005
guess what. even a pen reminds me of uu. wonder if uu knw which one. hah.
hopefully, when i come back. things will change. yes, i'm happy nw. bt i wish to be happier.
everyone pls take care. i'll miss all of uu.
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felt happy dressing up today. *grins
i just finished packing. am leaving for bangkok tmr in the morning with my family. i'm gna shop shop shop! will be coming back on sun night. just a short trip.
went visiting today. collected 594 bucks. hahas. tt's pretty much man. mre than what i wld usually receive for like 2-3days. tt's because my dad gave me 400 bucks. hahahhhas. think he's gna spend alot of money on me this new yr. plus the trip. my dad's been rrly nice. basically, everyone's been very nice to me.
i'm so slpy alrdy. gna slp soon.
v'dae is on mon. hmm.
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i feel bad and guilty nw and i'm so confuse abt my own religion. darn. i feel so caught in the middle.
why do i always feel tt i'm confuse?
Happy Lunar New Year!!!!
Best wishes to everyone for the yr! Have fun!
i like new yr because everyone's in a good mood. everyone's happy.
i need slp!!
| Tuesday, February 08, 2005
my day was full of ups and downs.
u're no longer tt simple, cute and cool guy tt i used to be so in love with. the one tt rode on a bike and enter the sch gate, doing sm stunts in front of me. the one tt used to be soo soo attractive, so cute, so charming, so sweet, to me. esp when u're on ur bike. espp when u smile, when u blush. yada yada.
now, u're so complicated, so unpredictable, so different. i used to tell my friends, "hey. don't say tt of him. he won't be like tt, i trust him. i knw him too well." bt, they told me," tt's what u think nw, bt after u guys break up, u'll realise, u dont even knw him." and i guess they're quite right. nt tt i don't even knw uu, bt i don't seem to knw uu anymre. it's so scary.
i don't believe, i don't expect. it's rather unbelievable.
the guy tt i used to love is gone.
my mum was the one tt cleaned my tears away.
i love my family! i love them tons and tons.
i'm a silly silly girl. like what everyone says.
-disappointed.
| Monday, February 07, 2005
i feel tt it's so hard to even get closer to a guy, who's just a friend. it's so difficult, i can't seem to do it. i feel tt i'm betraying uu, feel tt i'm doing smth tt's totally wrong. i can't do anyth.
what abt uu? are u like me? or are u dating normally?
i sorta hope u are tho. at least u'll be happy.
talked to priss. i told her, i'd want her to tell me, hey, tina, i've moved on. i want her to be happy, to be free. i want everyone ard me to be happy. i love seeing ppl laugh. it feels good.
i think in a way, i've growned up.
breakups are a stage of falling in and out of love. tho each relationship tt one goes thru is different, is unique, breaking up is however, definitely painful and tough. and so if it's inevitable, then why nt be brave, look forward and take the small step, u might be a happier person. the person tt u truly love, will be happy and free too. afterall, isnt tt what all of us want? for our loved ones to be happy?
goodnights. i have many things on my mind nw.
-missing u agn.
| Friday, February 04, 2005
it's a happy and interesting day.
things seem to be quite good this way too. =) i guess it's rrly so much better.
Happy Bdae Ming Yuan!!!!!
| Wednesday, February 02, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
saw my childhood friend today agn. ydae his grandma brought him to my parents shop. he's the grandson of lido's boss. i havent seen him in ages and it was sooo awkward. seriously.
another simple day has passed.
last night wasnt a good night at all and i hate tt.
- tina/teena =)
- sexy seventeen
- 280688
- angmokionorth pri. anderson pri. naval base secondary. catholic jc.
- singapore!
- tinatoh88@hotmail.com
- i am. a procrastinator. full of crap. quite materialistic. vainpot. noisy. pampered. indecisive.
- Loves. orange. black. turqoise. green(my current fav).
- the sun and the sea! suntanning. rollerblading. netball. badminton. swimming. sports.
- shopping. bikinis! clothes! sleeping. eating. talking. music.
- apples. watermelon. oranges. mango. fruits!
- the sweetest buds ard me! nbss clique and current clique.
- Hates. creepy crawlies. insects. breakingup. disappointment. backstabbers. liars. hypocrites.
gillian
tiffany
jaymie
alicia
alicia(nbss)
jillian
kahyee
benedict
kairenk
kenneth
raihanah
weilin
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michelle
elena
jeslyn
christopher
aloysius
shunxie
the shots.
ndp/club
racial harmony
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birthdaypics
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