talked to someone yesterdae..cried n cldnt quite slp de whole damn nite. hais. my mum knows. asked me what happened n i said nth. how am i suppose to tell her ya? i'll be fine anyway. sch was alrites tho i don think i was there. hahs. if u get what i mean. trg was quite fun. played round robin. at least while i was playing. i don have ta think abt anyth else. erms. ppl who are worried abt me. don worie. im fine.
To tt someone if u happened to be reading dis. don worie. everyth wld be fine. =] im fine too. hee.
PS: i think im starting to lyk gers. lols. whahahahahhaha
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talked to someone yesterdae..cried n cldnt quite slp de whole damn nite. hais. my mum knows. asked me what happened n i said nth. how am i suppose to tell her ya? i'll be fine anyway. sch was alrites tho i don think i was there. hahs. if u get what i mean. trg was quite fun. played round robin. at least while i was playing. i don have ta think abt anyth else. erms. ppl who are worried abt me. don worie. im fine.
PS: i think im starting to lyk gers. lols. whahahahahhaha
| Monday, March 29, 2004
heeyyss..just found out sm starf. abt nel. kinda pissed n unhappy n sad. yeas..sad..tt's it. whatever larrhhsss.
found out tt quite sm ppl read my blog. i mean ppl tt i don expect to read. hais. nvm larrrhss. don feel lyk blogging anymore.
ciaos!
| Saturday, March 20, 2004
tifi's over at my place now. went swimming in de morning 2gede. we had been doing hmwk. gd ya?? hahas. munching awae too~ lols. i sooo wanna go out!!! might be going out for awhile!!! whahahahahhahahahaha.
erms yah...i told alvin my ans yesterdae. im nt going to be wif him. im sorie. i don wanna be in any r/s now. went out wif gi n tif in de late noon. went shopping n had lunch/dinner at sakae. hehe. ciaos!
| Wednesday, March 17, 2004
haven been updating fer a long long tym man. went ta tp last sat for a course. LAW N MANAGEMENT RAWKS!!! lols. i guess everyone had fun. knew alot of ppl frm there. de 4 student helpers were great too. lets see if i can rmb their names. alan. daniel. aidal. fedrick. hahas. went town wif rai then met yuan. we wenta take neoprints.
went ta da fd fair wif my family. was very quiet de whole dae. my mummy even asked me how am i? am i okae n everyth mans. hais.
went sch for maths remedial. tif sae i look real bad. hais. i dunnoe man. she sae i look pale n starf. bud im okae. i guess. hah. went ta amk library to stardy wif tif gi siddharta n peilun. went ta ps to service my fone wif tif n peilun. ate at pizza hut n tt almost killed us. lols. de service was real bad. hahas.
went for maths mock test then went body world exhibition wif sch. lols. erms. i went ta collect my fone alone after tt. sians dae mans!
2dae. went sch for trg wif my own team. pathetic four ppl. lols. bud we had fun tho. came hm watched tevee n went online. mas sang to me! lols. he's singing is nt bad man. whahahahahaha. gi n tif made a sudden arrival at my place. we rotted together till ard 5 i guess then they left. okae..and finally here i am typing dis.
ciaos!
| Thursday, March 11, 2004
dream of him last nite and yesterdae was de 10.03.04. de date for our anniversary. wad does dis mean? whye's all this happening?
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im crying agn. darn. i've been crying. gi asked him if he still lyk me. he saes he don. he only treats me as a fren. jill asked him da same qn too. i expected de ans. i knew da ans. long long ago. but it still hurts. it just hurts so much. esp 2dae. dis morning. i've sorta made up my decision to let alvin go. i decided nt to be wif him. i may regret. i dunnoe. bud..how can i allow myself ta be wif smone tt deserve smone much better than me? how can i allow myself to be so selfish and then hurt de other party? i guess i knew tt me n him wont end up newhere but izzit worth a try? izzit okae to try even tho i noe de final outcome? aint i just wasting da tym of a nice guy? im stiill feelin so confuse. im feelin soooo terrible. i wan a hug! i need smone here with me! right now!
| Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Mya- Fallen
Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh
You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love
Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
And all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over hills for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you
Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
It's gonna be
Your my everything
Fallen
Head over hills (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
Fallen (Touch me)
Head over hills (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love
Fallen (In love)
Head over hills
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
Fallen (Head over hills for you)
Head over hills (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
de lyrics rawks yah? it relates well man. agree babes? hees.
Jill: i agree wif wad ya said. all de ppl ard me seem to be either in love happily or having trouble wif tt. hais. sadly..me wanie rai seem to be having trouble wif it. nvm girls. i believe dis will be over soon. let us walk hand in hand. friends never leave each other rites??!! *grins
i miss you.
i miss you so.
but i guess u'll nvr noe.
cos u nvr take a second look at me.
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Mya- Fallen
Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh
You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love
Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)
Fallen
Head over hills
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
And all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over hills for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you
Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
It's gonna be
Your my everything
Fallen
Head over hills (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
Fallen (Touch me)
Head over hills (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love
Fallen (In love)
Head over hills
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
Fallen (Head over hills for you)
Head over hills (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love
Jill: i agree wif wad ya said. all de ppl ard me seem to be either in love happily or having trouble wif tt. hais. sadly..me wanie rai seem to be having trouble wif it. nvm girls. i believe dis will be over soon. let us walk hand in hand. friends never leave each other rites??!! *grins
i miss you.
i miss you so.
but i guess u'll nvr noe.
cos u nvr take a second look at me.
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eeeeks..im suppose to do my tuition hmk n my teacher is suppose to be here netym frm now. sucks man!!! *god. im feelin' sick agn!! ciaos!
| Tuesday, March 09, 2004
jill gave me a letta after reading my blog. here it is. dated 040304.
" so i kinda noe wads bothering yoo. whye kant nel treat yoo de wae alcin does? rites? on yes!!! wadz up wif yoo n alvin newaes? i thot yoo said nth? it seems more than tt ger. i can sense tt he likes yoo. But ure too scared to fall in love n give him yr trust all over agn. is tt it? cus its a fact tt u kant get nel outta ya heart, n u don wanna let go of it too. cuz yr still see a lil glimmer of hope..n cuz u noe tt deep dwn inside, u still do love him. a whole lot. oh mans! i sound so darn mushy. *sighs. tina..yoo gt gotta give yourself n others a chance noe? yoo gotta start anew..yoo kant kp holding on forever,..tt's whye i've moved on too..and i want yoo to move on n start afresh..dont hold on to a broken 'fairytale'..okaes? love ya babe. *grins
i wanna let go too bud i just kant. i noe there's no hope bud im still holding on to dis..lyk wad i used to sae.."broken fairytale". i realli noe wad i shld do..i realli do..bud things just arent as simple as tt. i once thot i've gotten him out bud i realise i've nt. now..i dunnoe wad to sae or wad ta do. newaes. i plan ta give myself till de end of dis mth b4 telling alvin muh ans. lotsa ppl told me ta give him a chance. told me nt to regret. hais. i kant make my decision. i don wan to get involve in a r/s wif no real feelings nemore. my last one was de one tt made me realise..nvr get into de r/s for de sake of getting into one..lyk de first 3. at least...de last one was considered a gd one.
| Friday, March 05, 2004
dammit. i just confessed to him everyth. i dunnoe whye to. its de first tym i've done dis. i felt tt i've thrown awae all my pride n wadevrrr tt i have inside me. im tearing now. we din quite reach any ans. guess de ans was wad bth of us knew. i told him ta pretend i din sae neth. i can tell him to do tt bud i kant do it myself. damn!
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came back frm town. rotted at ljs wif tif n gi agn. me n gi were supposed to go swimming but it rained. saw pearlynn agn. it seems lyk she stays there. hah. hais. i kept thinking abt him da whole dae after chatting wif him yesterdae. seriously i cannot make it n a sucker for r/s yeah? bahs. kept toking abt him 2dae. me ming yuan n rai were discussing abt him when we were at yuan's place. we went there after sch. me gi n tif were toking abt him too. of cos alvin comes into de pic. but most of it was abt 'him'. i teared in de train. damn! i've been lyk tearing. dis is real bad.
im confused. tt's all i can sae. i think i noe wad i wanna do n what i shld do. but..im smwhat scared to do it.
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i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him! i miss him!!!!!!!
*ahhhhhhh i realli miss him!!!
i realli regret letting u go de second tym. i realli regret. are u willing to be come back to me??!!
i feel so silly. so stupid. so naive. another person is there waiting for me to give an ans and im here holding on to smth tt i shld have let go long ago becos i knew things wld nvr ever be da same agn.
| Thursday, March 04, 2004
i shld be doing my work n im here. newae..i gt back sm of my results already n they suck!! big tym mans. hais. i better buck up. im still sooo slack alrites??
oohh. i went over to gi's hs for awhile to bake de choco thingy then i came hm n sleep. i've been feelin really tired recently. i have no idea whye. im planning to go swimming tmr after sch den buy ingredients to make de cookies!! gi might be coming wif me. hee.
heehee. im chatting wif nel now. ciaos!
wait wait. another thing. i think im crazee.
- tina/teena =)
- sexy seventeen
- 280688
- angmokionorth pri. anderson pri. naval base secondary. catholic jc.
- singapore!
- tinatoh88@hotmail.com
- i am. a procrastinator. full of crap. quite materialistic. vainpot. noisy. pampered. indecisive.
- Loves. orange. black. turqoise. green(my current fav).
- the sun and the sea! suntanning. rollerblading. netball. badminton. swimming. sports.
- shopping. bikinis! clothes! sleeping. eating. talking. music.
- apples. watermelon. oranges. mango. fruits!
- the sweetest buds ard me! nbss clique and current clique.
- Hates. creepy crawlies. insects. breakingup. disappointment. backstabbers. liars. hypocrites.
gillian
tiffany
jaymie
alicia
alicia(nbss)
jillian
kahyee
benedict
kairenk
kenneth
raihanah
weilin
cornelius
michelle
elena
jeslyn
christopher
aloysius
shunxie
the shots.
ndp/club
racial harmony
hollandv
birthdaypics
random sch pics
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