My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
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i just came hm. dis early man. im seldom back hm at dis tym. moreover..2dae is fridae. hahas. im just going to rest..maybe take a nap then im going to watch de c gers match. its at 5. its against s'pore sports sch. hmm..wonder if they'll win. it'll be real great if they do. all de best ppl!!
| Thursday, January 29, 2004
hmm...nt feeling too gd. im lyk suffering frm low self esteem siahs. hais. i feel lyk a loser. bad at everyth. bad at studying..bad at netball..bad treating my frens..a bad gf too? i dunnoe. just a lazy bad n loser girl? tt's how i feel. bud den..who can i blame ya? i can only blame myself for nt working hard. i dunnoe.
had a match 2dae. we won. 22-11 to admiralty. they're a new sch so...nt a big deal i guess. we played n trained under de rain for bth tues n 2dae. hais. think im gonna fall sick soon. im having a flu now plus i haven been feeling well then. ooo..okae..ciaos!
| Monday, January 26, 2004
man. i just broke up wif him. i noe i din mention abt me getting attached cos im nt sure if i wan tt many ppl to noe. actually..i patched up wif him. after i did..alot of things went thru my mind. i wasnt as happie as i thot i wld be...i wasnt exactly sure abt us nemore. in de end..2dae..i decided to end de r/s. bth of us agreed tt we no longer get along lyk how we used to...we no longer have things in common. im nt even sure if im just holding on to de memories or i realli need him. yeahs..it was kinda gd tt i decided to end dis r/s rites? bud..i kant help bud cry..i cldnt stop crying...maybe becos of de things tt i was saeing. dis shit suck man! i dunnoe wad im gonna do now..i gt to calm dwn..i need to get a hold of myself!
| Sunday, January 25, 2004
oh yah..realise i haven tok abt 2dae. i went to eat tim sum in de afternoon at teahouse which is at china square. tt place is quite cool..fd's nt bad. my famlie have dis tradition tt's lyk we will always have tim sum during cny. any dae during ny. hahas. erms..we went to marina square then river hong bao after tt. nth much actually. then i came hm after tt. hahas. okae..
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went to watch "Last Samurai" wif him ydae. de movie was nt bad...quite nice. he sent me to woodlands n up a taxi b4 he left. i went to tifi's hs to meet de ppl. i was late by then. when i reached..everyone had eaten. i sat there...ate de rest of de fd in de steamboat and toked to gi..priss n tifi. de guys were lyk playing cards alreadi. oh yah..newae..de guys were lyk peilun..steven leow..calvin..wei jie..and dis guy tt i dunnoe. after i ate..we gambled till lyk nites..den mahjiong. i lost lyk $20plus bud all of them returned to me in de last game cos i was lyk de one tt lost de most. bad luck man! they taught me how to. i went dwn to vista pt. wif calvin..steven n peilun. we wanted to buy alcohol. hahas. we're bad..i noe. lols..bud in de end we din buy..end up buying vita milk. lols. ate pizza when we came back then all of us went hm 2gede. we were planning to slpover..bud it was lyk raining quite heavily then. erms..newae..had fun there! we shld plan another one bud get all de usual ppl ya?
hehe.
| Friday, January 23, 2004
hmm...visiting was alrites 2dae. gt a few "hong baos" only. i went to meet smone after de visiting. ard 7 plus..we met at orchard den went to esplanade. sat there n tok for awhile. nth very much actually bud i enjoy de company. kae..ciaos!
ps: im having dis bad gastric!! *screams
| Thursday, January 22, 2004
happie new year!! hahas..im here in jo's hs..we went to sit n drink outside my hs den intended to go to de park. jon came to meet us. we sat there n tok for awhile. played spin de bottle. n tok tok...nth else. and...finally..here i am. hmm..newae b4 tt i went to my grandma's hs for potluck. it was simple..bud a gd gathering. we played cards. eh..just lyk tt. hahas. okae...
ciaos!
ps: i had a gd dae. only "he" noes de reason..n sm of my frens? lols..whahahhaa
| Tuesday, January 20, 2004
sch was alritex..there was once when he's in front of me bud i din dare to look up...i sooo wan to look at him bud..i dunnoe..im scared..hais. i feeling them confuse right now. i wan to move on..bud..i kant stop looking back..i kant even stop thinking of him now after de smsing. i think i was looking at him during recess at one pt of tym n jill caught me staring..she said.."tina i think yoo shld tok to him." i was lyk so agitated tt i said..."tok to him? abt wad? tt i still care abt him? tt i still lyk him? kiss my ass man!" i dunnoe wads wrong wif me. lyk i gt hit in de bull's eye? hais. i cannot make it larhs. he even msged me n asked if i have gt msn cos he wanna add me. i was in town then. i was lyk..omg when i saw his name..den i was jumping when i saw de msg. hais. wadeva larhs. i better shudup now!
i had bio test 2dae. din stardie at all. think its lyk a sure-fail thing man. hais. i don give a shit abt this. its just a test. bio test.
went town wif gi after sch. wanted to shop for more clothes. more starf...bud i kant see neth tt i lyk man. hais. okae okae..think i better go.
ciaos!
| Monday, January 19, 2004
shit! i have a bio test tmr n i haven stardie yet. hahas. how wonderful ritex? newae..here's de lyrics for sexed up by robbie.
Loose lips sunk ships
I'm getting to grips
With what you've said
No it's not in my head
I cannot awaken the dead day after day.
Why don't we talk about it ?
Why do you always doubt that there could be a better way?
It doesn't make me wanna stay
(Chorus)
Why don't we break up ?
There's nothing left to say
I've got my eyes shut, praying they won't stray
and we're not sexed up
That's what makes the difference today
I hope you blow away
You say we're fatally flawed
Well I'm easily bored, Is that okay?
Strike me off your list
Make this the last kiss
I'll walk away
Why don't we talk about it?
I'm only here
Don't shout it
Given time we'll forget
Let's pretend we never met
(Chorus)
Screw you, I didn't like your taste
Anyway, I chose you
and that's all gone to waste
It's Saturday, I'll go out and find another you
Chorus:
Why don't we
Why don't we break up
There's nothing left to say
I've got my eyes shut
Praying they won't stray
And we're not sexed up
That's what makes the difference today
I hope you blow away
I hope you blow away
I hope you blow away
I hope you blow away.
blow away
blow away
just blow away
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im in dis sad sad writey writey mood. i've been quite dreamy de whole dae. i kant stop thinking abt him since i saw him ydae. dis is so bad! i cldnt get to slp ydae. i was listening to music when i decided to write smth. here's wad it is.
I was listening to robbie william's sexed up & i thot abt us agn. 2dae..i was so thrilled to see yoo. hahas. i din expect to see ya there. thank god i was there..thank god i saw yoo!! dis is de first tym i saw yoo there. When i saw yoo..my stomache did a somersault. there even were butterflies. I swear it did. I couldnt stand still...i cldnt stop jumping n i sooooooo feel lyk screaming. It was then i realise i miss you!! i still feel smth for yoo!! I thot since last yr nov 17 2003 i wrote tt letter to yoo in my old diary i wld fufil my promise& nt think abt u. Bud..2dae i realise i haven 4got abt yoo yet. I kant do it!! You still have a place in my heart. *sigh i don understand myself. Why?? Why on earth kant i fufil my promise? de promise to 4get you..to remove completely frm my heart. You smsed me after tt and we end up smsing till 11 plus..till you din reply. I was dissapointed bud it was okae. Myabe its lyk wad u said..ur batt went flat. You told me b4 tt n tt acted as an assurance for me. hahas. its kinda silly rights? Thanks..for telling me b4 hand..becos i knew..if u haven told me...i wld be realli realli dissapointed. Smths tt u said realli mean alot to me. Those are just simple things...lyk i look realli weak when im sick..and to take care and starf. im realli realli happie tt i hear them frm yoo.
The memories of us are still clear n fresh in my mind. wad abt urs? Do u still have them? do u still care abt them? Do you miss them lyk how i do? hais..im nt confident enuf to ans these questions myself. im afraid to think abt it.. i dunnoe..i feel tt im de only fool here.
waiting..waiting..
11.30pm
hais. feeling so troubled..so weird now. hmm..you noe..im lyk wad gi said. " you want to move on bud agn..u don wan it ritex? de only guy tt u wan it him rites?" hais. suck man!!
oh yah..im going shopping tmr agn.
PS: i cut my hair. lols.
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hey hey...shhh...im in de skool com lab now!! whahahahaha...evil laughter!! weee~ we're crazee...blasting music here cos my teacher is nt here man!! whoohoohoo!!! lols..hmm...i shall blog ltr..i wrote a letter for him last nite when i was listening to music. hais. okae..cya!! ciaos~
| Saturday, January 17, 2004
whahahahahaha..i had alot alot of fun 2dae man. altho..i had a boring morning...hais. bud its all worth it i guess. i went to meet fifi at yck mrt ard 4.30..she came late so i sat there n read my mag till she came. kah yee came along wif us too. we then went to cine...subway..fifi n kong wanna eat. priss came to meet us after awhile..gi n jackson happened to reached tooo. hahas..we din plan to meet tt jackson tho..erms..met him coincidentally..i guess. hehe..just de few of us were crazee enuf...can u imagine..yuan..yana n rai came to meet us? de whole lot of us man!! we were sooooo...darn crazee. rai..yana n fifi kept dancing ard me. lols. they're crazee..we're all crazee!!! weee~~ we took neos twicee. there's one tt we screamed tt loudly tt even de security guard came to warn us siahs. lols. oh yah..when we were queeing up to take neos at heeren..i saw kingsfield! hahahaha...my frens were lyk making farn when i told them siahs. dey were shouting they're name altogether. we were just very very noisy..super noisy. everyone was lyk staring at us man. oh yah...dey told me tt kingsfield was lyk thinking whether to sae hi..cos he was lyk walking here bud walk back agn wif his fren. ermmms...for those hu dunnoe hu he is..he is actually a guy tt lives ard my estate..jon's fren.
hmmm..wadeva it is..i realli had a great tym 2dae. never had so much farn after such a long tym. hahas. i love my friends..i realli realli love my current grp of frens! ppl...hugs n kisses to all of u!!!
| Wednesday, January 14, 2004
dammit. gt caught 2dae for my blue socks. its lyk..its just socks okae?? wad abt de rest of de gers wif supper short skirt?? wads wif de eyes of de teachers siahs. suck man!!! lols. hmm..gt to go see mojo-jojo tmr to show her tt my socks is white. wth?? hais. newae..had trg 2dae..darn tired now. nt realli becos of de trg bud de whole dae at skool. *sigh sigh erms..went bishan to eat after tt wif gi n tifi. nth much happened. i toked to jerry on my wae hm. guess tt's all tt happened in dis whole damn dae. noe smth?? sch is lyk getting suckier n more tiring dae by dae!! Farkin' hell!!! pardon me for my language..im having headache n im feeling grumpy right now. guess i better stop now or else....
ciaos! hopefully tmr will be a better dae.
| Monday, January 12, 2004
orientation dae.
it was quite an eventful dae. hahas. i injured my leg on fri bud i din realise den continued playing. it's lyk super bad muscle pull man. hurts alot siahs. oh yah..think we recruited alot of ppl for netball. hahas. i got burnt becos i was under de sun for de whole afternoon. bud i had a fun tym playing. ohh..me n gi went swimming after tt. it was crowded at de pool so we just swim for awhile nia. we went to bishan to eat after tt. we had fun!! it was lyk a farnie dae. erms...i tok to [j] on de fone when i came back. he told me smths tt made me very touch. i realli feel lyk giving him a chance. bud i noe..if i give him a chance..it wld be lyk i gave him a chance becos he's very nice to me bud nt becos i lyk him. hais. i was quite bothered.
skool was nt too bad 2dae. had farn. my class is kinda lyk farn now becos of all de ppl sitting ard me. hahas. all noisy n crappy ppl. whahahhhaahah. tt equals farn!!! wee! newae..i went for hmt after sch. when i reached there..i saw tt my fren was sitting behind ryan. i was lyk wth?? hais. damn! after i sat dwn for awhile. he turned back n asked for my no. i was lyk feeling damn blardy awkard nt knowing wad to do man. in de end i gave him my no. bud i did sm bad things. i told my fren tt im attached knowing tt he will listen to me n my fren's conversation. hais. dunnoe larhs dunnoe larhs. im soooooo vexed siahs. oh yah..i saw nel in sch 2dae. i asked alicia if she realised tt nel became darker n she was lyk yah..he went for camp marhs. i was then lyk..okae. haiyayayayayaya!!!! wo hen fan!!!!
| Friday, January 09, 2004
let me tok abt yesterdae first. erms..skool was okae..i went for hmt after tt. i was thinking of nel on my wae there. i dunnoe why..i realli don noe. now check dis out. i saw him at yck. de traffic light tt he used to cross. its lyk coincidental yah?? gt 'suan' by my teacher de min i went in. she was lyk " wah..u went where to shop arhs? so late den come!!" hais. bud i was lyk 1 hr late..bud do u think i want?? hahas..me n xingjie tok to guo quan n ryan. me n tt 2 guys frm our class use to be very close in sec 1. until dey each gave me a letter. one after another...den i din tok to them anymore. btw..dey were lyk de only 2 guys in our class at tt tym. hahas. xingjie happened to walk to de same bus stop..took de same bus wif them. dey talked alot. xingjie called me when she reached hm n told me everything. i was roller blading alone at tt tym. wad she told me was hilarious bud i was kinda flattered. i mean i shld be. hahas. there's lyk a stalker in my class siahs!! my fren told me tt smth's gonna happened on mon..lets see man. de rest of de dae was fine bud i had tones of hmwk. hais.
skool was nt too bad. i went town wif jill..gi n wanie after skool n tt is b4 netball. i stayed there for lyk 1hr only? bud i was glad tt i went aniwae..rather than staying in skool. oh yah..there were lots of gd looking dudes in town 2dae. note..i said alot!! man...i even saw a nel look lyk. lols. bud they were saeing nel's better looking than him. whahahahhas. of cos!! hehes. okae..tina!! get a hold of urself!! i seriously think im going crazee. i've been lyk supper blur..super siao ever since skool started n i just kant seem to be serious. god!! dis shld stop!! arrrrghhhhs. jill msged me saeing tt there are lots of hot dudes after i left. lols. dis suck. it seems lyk we ppl are getting desperate. hais. nobody wants us!!! muahahahahah. im crapping..im crapping... kaos. stop it!!
chaos!
| Wednesday, January 07, 2004
man..i had a bad dae yesterdae siahs. suck!!! i stood for 2 periods class. one for chem n one for eng. hais. nth special yarhs?? hahas. okae..had de first lesson for bio for dis yr n tt left me so shag. de best thing was..i still gt to go to amk to confirm my hmt class for dis yr. shitt!! i skipped netball becos of tt siahs. oh yah..now's de trg for netball is wed n fri. one gd thing n one bad thing abt de change. gd thing ish..it wldnt clash wif my hmt. bad thing ish..no more chionging on fri!! *sigh nvm..since im determined to work hard n save money. haha.. *dots. okae..continue wif my story. i went for hmt n de best thing was..they simply asked us to sign n then told us tt we can leave. wth?? i expected it wld be a short one bud nt tt short. then..i took de wrong bus n went to sm weird place. i wanted to take a taxi hm then bud i decided tt i shld take a bus to my shop then get my dad to send me back. who noes..when i reach de shop..my dad don wanna send me back. i was so tired so..i gt pissed off n took a taxi hm. damn! if i'd knew it..i wld have taken a taxi hm strg. i was so pissed off n tired tt i almost cried in de taxi. hais. de rest of de dae wasnt too bad.
skool was okae 2dae. nt bad. at least it ended earlier than usual n i can go hm n take a rest. i stayed back for awhile after sch tho..wif margaret to ask ms yek smths tt we were unclear abt. heys..noe? sm of my frens are telling me or asking me abt my eye bags n dark rings. i notice it myself i think its quite bad. hahas. bud i realli wonder why i gt them. i slp..just tt i don realli slp very well. hmm..maybe tt's de reason. bleahs! bad siahs! okae okae..i gt to go do my starf lerhs.
*buzz off
i tot i've put u right in de back of my mind until i saw u agn. i realise i still have smth for yoo. wad abt yoo?
| Monday, January 05, 2004
hey man..sch was fine 2dae. had sm hmwk..okae..dis is lyk durh. hmm..we gt our sitting arrangement 2dae. im sitting wif calvin chia. gi n kah yee is sitting in front of me n steven n priss behind me. hmm..my tt area is kinda rowdy. lols. i stayed back in sch 2dae to do de netball banner for orientation. reached hm lyk 6 when sch dismiss lyk 1.30. so tiring man..i was so darn slpy. hais. im still having headache!! bad!!
erms. i realise smth 2dae. i think its smth tt i don wish to find out. i guess i've been smwhat escaping frm it. hais. arghhh!!! i don lyk it! hahas. are u ppl thinking wad im trying to sae? hais. its abt r/s agn! suck!
chiaos!
| Saturday, January 03, 2004
3 doors down. here without yoo
A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
But tonight girl it’s only you and me
oh man..i love dis song sooooo much!! it means smth to me. hahas.
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man..im sooooo bored now n i simply don feel lyk doing anything even tho i realli have starf to do. im just reading my bk..listening to music n chatting. shoooo boring siahs. btw..did i mentioned tt i watched mona lisa smile yesterdae after sch? tt show's kinda boring. nt quite my kind of movie yah. hais. guess wad? yesterdae i cried agn. hahas. i was toking to my mum abt skool n she's lyk too bz to hear me out. its alwaz lyk tt n smytms lyk how i felt last nite..there's no one to hear me when i need them. wadeva. im sorta lyk use to it tt's why now..im kping things to myself more than i used to.
man..im god damn bored!!
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| Friday, January 02, 2004
YOyoyoyo!!! wenta skool 2dae & it suck! skool suck! i lyk going to skool to meet my frens but obviously nt to stardie. arghhh...i don lyk!! im feelin' very 'sticky'..u noe as in im lyk being whiny to ppl ard me. hahas. i donnoe how ta describe. hmm..aniwae i noe skool's startin' & i kant escape so i might as well enjoy it. yah?? okae..i feel lyk im consoling myself.
oh yah..my class is sitting so near to 5A1! nel's class! i noe i shldnt care bud when i saw tt dis morning..i freaked out. hahas. i dunnoe why. im being stoopid. im crazee!! freakin' hell~ man..yesterdae i found out abt smth n was kinda upset bud i believe i will get over it soon. i noe i will..
okae..i gt to go do my tuition hmwk cos i have tuition tmr in de morning and u noe wad?? dammnit!!
| Thursday, January 01, 2004
hmm. i woke up lyk 12.10. lyk wow...its so late already kae. anywae i slept at 6 in de morning man. hahas. i ended up toking to daniel on de fone. its lyk actually our first tym chatting.
hais. i kant believe it . sch's starting tmr...lyk wad my fren said...de start of o levels. gosh!! i hate it. de thot of it make me feel im exploding. de new passed realli fast..esp de hols. btw..i haven do any of my tuition hmwk. shit! gt to do dem now. ciaos!
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im crying lyk nobody's business now. i dunnoe why. omg! i noe i just entered an entry bud...i cldnt help it. i feel lyk im breaking dwn agn..over nth..or izzit i just dunnoe. i suck! hais.
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i just reached hm. im feeling realli depress right now. i lyk smbody. i realised tt. i told my frens in a jk manner..i tot i was just cracking a joke too bud now i realise i realli have an infatuation on him. hais. he doesnt think tt wae i think. he doesnt noe neth abt it. its de first tym i tok to him 2dae. i called him n wished him happie new yr..tok to him for awhile. i called him agn ltr n alicia n jo actually crapped wif him. hais. im realli realli depressed. cried a few tyms. i told them how i felt or shld i sae how i've been feeling for 2003. i told them how i felt a loser i am. i dunnoe.
we're kinda seh..haha..i drank more than any of them. i dunnoe why. i wanna get drunk actually. hahas. bud u noe smth? i feel kinda miserable right now. shit! dis suck right to de core. argghhhh!!!!
oh yah..did i mention tt i called smwhat lyk everyone on my list..including nelson? i feel weird. i dunnoe..i just wanna forget everything n call everyone. ohhh..im listening to p10 n they're playing de song frm school of rock. nice!
okae..i gtg..think i shld try to slp...
ciaos!
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- Loves. orange. black. turqoise. green(my current fav).
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- apples. watermelon. oranges. mango. fruits!
- the sweetest buds ard me! nbss clique and current clique.
- Hates. creepy crawlies. insects. breakingup. disappointment. backstabbers. liars. hypocrites.
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